it’s going bad again .. all bad .. everything. i have been feeling so .. shitty. sometimes i feel i’d rather just kill myself .. than go to the dentist .. again. ** sigh ** how depressing it is .. again. all over again .. those injections in the gums, the thin needles in your teeth, a sudden burst of this .. excruciating pain after having been assured by the doc that you won’t feel anything. ahhh!!! … i can’t … i can’t … oh ma .. i so wanna cry ..

if bad goes to worse, i will go see cyra’s dentist here in hyd. i liked him, and only pedodontists check teeth the way every dentist should, with some respect to the person lying, with a gaping mouth, underneath their sharp, potentially fatal tools.

.. and my eye-sights going. i wear glasses for clear vision of distant objects and tv/computer/cinema. a couple of nights back the book i was reading (half lying) suddenly came closer to the eyes while i maneuvered a turn trying to remain withing the sheet limits, and voila, the words turned hazy. that left me very sad indeed, ** sigh **

on a different note, i thoroughly enjoyed chetan bhagat’s new book ‘2 states’ (not of being silly), and i’d got it for only rs 95, or rs 195. one of those, but so bloody worth it. on the other hand, this other book i am reading now ‘past continuous’, by neel mukherjee, doesn’t seem worth it. his writing’s not bad, but it’s not worth it for rs 500. would have enjoyed it if i’d bought it for rs 250 or some such. but still, might think differently once i have finished it. will update this space in case i do change my opinion after finishing it.