this stupid, silly world, this life. we know it’s so trifle, and yet we put all our heart and soul into it. funny! when just perceptions make us feel that it’s worth it. all this pain, agony, redundant anxieties, are all worth it.

crap no!!?!! :) hehe.. i just wrote it to … jus fill some virtual space i guess.

i am planning to go to goa for christmas and to mumbai for new years’. none planned, both invites i accepted. well, for new years’ its not an invite, i and cy will be visiting a very dear friend, and she hates to go out, so i guess we will be spending the new years’ usher in-doors, cozied-up in front of the tele. :) yey! best way to celebrate…

work updates? i’ll jot them down later, when the current drama is settled a bit.

i’ve applied to only one school for cy. i didn’t like most of what i saw. for example, 1000 rs just for filling out application forms, ridiculous. and then a 20-30,000 deposit that is non-refundable. deposit for what?? and 30,000??? people are so, so stupid, people who actually give that kind of money to educational institutes whose main concern is making money and not education. as a matter of fact it seems that education is no concern at all.

if i was … staunch, i would whip myself on the back till my hide came off. that’s how much i feel shitty about having that idli breakfast i just had. i had promised mysorryself in the morning that all day i will eat only fruits, and i did get a bagful along. and at 11, just as the thought of people enjoying idlis on the terrace, sitting in the warm sunshine, i quietly and quickly got up my chair, went up and had 3 huge idlis. ahhhh!!!! :( why, o God why!!!

hmmm …

i wrote a song for cyra, but i will not post it here for fear of plagiarism. :) i have a basic tune in mind, and i will compose it if i can find a coupla decent musicians.

what else!!!

we went for this awesome “trek” this past saturday. this place called korigad, a fort ahead of lonavla, and partied in the night, and cy lost the race in her schools sport’s day the next sunday morning. :) it was a tiring, very nice weekend. i look forward to doing nothing this weekend. maybe just go with cy to a mall, and maybe also do some grocery shopping, maybe indulge in some fat food. lesee!! :)

there are so many different types of people, it’s amazing. different thoughts, different beliefs, the different surities in those beliefs. it really is amazing. i think it’ll be very interesting if one keeps a log of each person s/he meets in life. wow! i would do it, but there’ll be times when i wouldn’t get time and then there’ll be times when i’ll just lose patience .. there might be a consistency problem.

i had a very real dream last night. most of dreams have a very real feel to them, but this one was exceptionally real. i witnessed each moment of the entire interaction. moment after moment, it was a proper 2-3 hrs event that played through in a single flow.

it’s 2:58 pm in the afternoon. i just had a nice walk after a not-so-great lunch back to office. it’s a … nice day. some people are calling it very gloomy, cos it’s cloudy and grey and colder. but i like it somehow. i normally don’t like grey and cold, but today, i am enjoying it. so the walk was doubly enjyable. even my mood was light. i smiled to myself two times on the way. :)

yes. i haven’t written in a zillion years now. i haven’t even been documenting my dreams. as a matter of fact, i haven’t been remembering my dreams. i do dream, i know, but they are forgotten within the first moment of my waking up.

days are rather sleepy aajkal. i don’t know if it’s the weather, but if i am just tired. but if i am tired, it’s not bad tired, cos i have been feeling … nice, of late. ** touchwood ** and it’s a nice, sweet kinda sleepyness i feel .. the kind of sleep one would slowly sink into. i think it is the weather. the slighty chilly air, and the inviting, soft rays of the sun. lucky are those who get to sleep under these rays in the lazy afternoons.

i had a yummy soup last night. really yummy. it had chicken wontons, sme noodles and prawns. really yummy. went very well with the corona.

i am writing this here jus cos i thought i’ll write something here. what i really wanted to write might turn into a big gender bias thingie.