Monthly Archives: January 2006

love

love. i have always known that i know it. when lithe, nimble limbed riding a fast black horse i knew, its useless i din need it why shud anyone else and then i grew, within caught myself smiling at nothing … Continue reading

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that evening i saw the Sun and i saw the moon both together in the same sky one setting and one rising one austere and beautiful shiny like just washed and scrubbed the other enveloped a thousand heavens far from … Continue reading

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the dream

this fire that i have that i never lit i never knew and suddenly your eyes fanned it all i could do was get pulled towards what i feel is the source the source of this misery, which it’s so … Continue reading

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my mom

आओ महनत को अपना ईमान बनाà¤?ं अपने हाथों को अपना भगवान बनाà¤?ं राम की इस धरती को गौतम की भूमी को सपनों से भी पà¥?यारा हिनà¥?दà¥?सà¥?तान बनाà¤?ं i have taken these lines from veer’s blog. yes! 26th january used to … Continue reading

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:(

i am losing my mind. completely. i am being eaten, slowly being annihilated by the worm of suspicion. a worm with a million sharp teeth. its hurting my innards, making me wanna cry … cry so hard. i wish we … Continue reading

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cyra won a gold medal :)

it was cyra’s sports day yesteray, sunday. that was the last time i remember being alive. *sigh* i took part in a stupid, stupid parents’ race (oh! how i regret having said yes to it. i’d thought we’d be made … Continue reading

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Hello!

everyone is looking for someone who knows just what to say who knows just what to do hello! … i wonder where you are

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musiq

if the song ‘wicked games’ was a guy … he’d always, always reach the g-point.

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journey to pune

the journey bit of the mumbai weekend was doomed from the word go. the weekend passed pretty nicely. i went and saw the doctor on saturday. i went all the way to matunga, from thane in a local train, and … Continue reading

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journey to mumbai

for the 1st time in the last four months, i and cyra, and sul were standing on the road leading to the mumbai highway, and no bus. normally, i just reach there, and i get a seat. but i guess, … Continue reading

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one from my ‘forDino’ collection

its killing me this wait to feel some semblance of love and maybe care i will do him and him and her eventually i will be so blotted that you will if/when you do see me fail to recognize me … Continue reading

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i just felt today that one is most creative when one is sad, rather pensive (sadness takes you there). when one is happy, one is … beyond creation. one just “is”. one doesn’t feel the need anymore to create something, … Continue reading

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if he loved/loves you. then, why aren’t you together/married now? its nobody’s fault that they “use” you. its there, they take it. _______________________________________________________________ i wanna learn how to make chocolates. maybe i’ll join some classes or something. there’s a place … Continue reading

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i used to like siva

i’ve been a bad girl. i was superficially hungry (no need to go eat anyways), and i faced a conflict about whether i should fulfill my perpetual urge to gobble down a McVeggie burger (extra mayo), at rs 35, or … Continue reading

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buying a bicycle is turning a lot like learning how to drive. its a strong determination in my head, but in the middle of the day, it seems like something which is not very … real. not something i can … Continue reading

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crushed

my poems are just like me not beautiful or even pleasant but just what they are as they got created like a river took natural turns just flowed on flat lands and fell when at edge my love (read lust) … Continue reading

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:)

my angel keep smiling at me cos that’s how i see you in my mind in my dreams smiling always

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about depression

i was thinking that maybe i am depressed i had a big veg kathi roll (dats the only big thing i’ve had of late) then a McVeggie with coke a “happy” meal huh! like that’d help but that is when … Continue reading

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*sigh* :)

the weekend was nice i didn’t think about you even once no ache, no urge, no craving no lustful thots no wanting to just sit and stare i was so happy and glad its finally over i am over you … Continue reading

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The New Year’s Day!!

at 0000 hrs on the 1st of january, 2006, i was standing on the highway … under a dark, dirty, dusty with black pollution soot that was everywhere, fly-over kind of a thing, and the hiway traffic zooming past in … Continue reading

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