to live, to keep ‘goin on’
something i never started…
something not in my hand to finish…
there’s nuthing much i can do
but be humble
and thankful
for a beautiful, truly amazing gift
i don’t remember asking for

i’d like to have a cause to die for.
… and then die for it.

its been many, many days since i last ‘wrote’. one there’s this crunch project i’m on. such disgustingly pathetic deadlines that you don’t feel pressured or even tense, you just feel funny. me and my project manager, we just look at each other and laugh. *giggles**giggles**giggles*!!! through the morning, through the noon, through all day. we just keep giggling. kheekheekhee!!!

i am looking forward to march. the project should end hopefully. i will pick up anna karenina again. have been trying to read her since last year. would like to sit and think. haven’t done that in a long time. just sit and stare out into space. its so weird!! of late i haven’t been feeling anything. is it a phase? as in, the way i was kinda restless about … life in general and a bit worried about money, and also dismayed about generally nothing. am feeling not any of that. am not like happy, and jumping with joy. but am peaceful, content. not really looking beyond right now. i’m sure it’ll change. the day the project ends, and i wonder what to do next.

i might go to dilli in march. will take a train. wat else!! just numb. a soft, hummmmm in the head. *sigh* will be back with some clarity … whenever!!!

just read this on the office message board. i agree.

rolling stones gather no moss.
… so who needs moss. rolling is fun.

:-)

mera puppy, tera puppy
marey jhappi,
followed by a puppie
to ho jaye india mein pakistan
pyar ki jhappi
puppies pe kurbaan

ek tum do puppy,
ek mein doon puppy
please note there are no puppies
ek dog den banaygein,
puppies ko khilayengey
mera puppy, tera puppy
marey jhappi

dekho ye hum kya kartey hein
na kaam na dhaam
bus yoon hee jabartey hein
kal boss bahut hee bolega
hamarey kaam ko ‘puppies’ mein tolega
hum bolengey
mera puppy, tera puppy
marey jhappi

- jaggu and piti. :)

… and i want to tell you so much
i love you.

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I’ve just got to let you know
Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do … I do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven’t got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you.

-lionel richie

only one condition to love. unconditionality.

is that what padmashree is for? performing is commercial films and making loads of money? what has our dear, old, old country come to. national service. sad. really sad. all earlier padmashree awardees should return their awards, and all those who’ll be given it in the future should say no to it.

in mumbai, all theatres play the national anthem before a movie starts. if i stand in salute, its more because i am scared of what might happen if i don’t. what have we come to. as a nation. we are growing smaller by the second. our hearts, our minds, our souls …. shrinking … along with the globe. its not supposed to happen this way. … ab watan azad hai. par mein nahi.